| So while my life is good, and school is great, inside i'm really getting sad. I have so much, and i hate complaining. I also am very excited about going to germany for a year, but at the same time, i'm scared out of my mind. every now and then i get this really scary thought where i start freaking out because i realize that every single person i know and am close to i will be leaving behind next year. It's scary because, while i'm a very independent person, i still love to have SOMEONE to go to. I've never had very many friends, i always said "quality over quantity," but i'll be leaving and be left with NO ONE. I don't know where i'm living, who i'm living with, or even if i'll have the internet. I guess it'll be a new adventure for me, and when i look back i'll be able to say that i went and lived in a foreign country for a whole year, but it still scares me. I've been a bit down lately, i guess that's because jordan left today for vegas for 7 weeks. Not only this, but virtually all my friends will be busy all summer long, and i have absolutely no plans.... ok this is getting too long, and i'm too tired, and too sad....so g'night. |
